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“You’ve Got This” Healthline Videos to Support MS Patients

Healthline just launched a video campaign for MS called “You’ve Got This” where individuals living with MS can record a short video to give hope and inspiration those recently diagnosed with MS.

You can visit the homepage and check out videos from the campaign here: http://www.healthline.com/health/multiple-sclerosis/youve-got-this

Healthline will be donating $10 for every submitted campaign to the National MS Society, so the more exposure the campaign gets, the more the videos Healthline will receive, and that is all the more Healthline can donate to MS research, support groups, treatment programs, and more.

Perhaps you could help spread the word about this by sharing the “You’ve Got This” information and link with friends and followers of your own blogs or include the campaign as a resource on your Facebook, Twitter, or other social media sites you use.

Thank you!







It has begun.

The pill-popping.

This is something I have been grappling with for months and months. Taking medication every day gives me an  unsettled feeling. There are many reasons why I do not wish to become a daily pill-popper. The main reason is that I do not want to put chemicals into my body that have the potential to make my physical well-being become dependent on them. Make sense?

Baclofen. Baclofen is a muscle relaxer and anti-spasm medication. Everything I have read and learned from my pharmacist is that Baclofen has terrible withdrawal symptoms similar to Benzo withdrawal or alcohol withdrawal (neither of which I have ever experienced, but have witnessed in other people.) Additionally, I have been avoiding medication like this because I read that muscle relaxers make you feel a little hinkey in the head. My family owns multiple rehab centers so I am familiar with medication addiction. Maybe that’s why I am leary of taking anything.

So far, (so far being 36+ hours) the Baclofen has been amazing. I am tooting that horn even though I am not on board with the pill-popping train. It actually works. It has only been a couple of days and already I feel looser, barely any tension, and very few spasms in my legs and none in my shoulder blade. The Baclofen is supposed to be taken with my Gabapentin for maximum effectiveness. I tried that last night and this morning and I feel great. My head does not feel funny at all. I’m happy to report that this doesn’t seem to be a typical muscle-relaxer in that regard. My dosage is quite low at 20 mg per day. It seems that 80 mg is a high dose and somewhat typical for MS, Syringomyelia, and other spinal cord issues. I’m happy to stick with the 20 mg per day. It is working.

Yoga time.

Recent Symptoms of My M.S. & Syrinx


Generally, I try not to complain or let anyone know I am having physical discomfort. Certainly not my daughter or boyfriend. For some reason, even though they know it happens every now and then, I hate to: 1. complain, 2. appear weak to the two people who need me the most, and 3. in my humble opinion, nobody likes to be around somebody who is always moaning, grunting, and ailing. It is just human nature.

On to some interesting symptoms that I have been noting in my journal.

1. Searing pain in cervical spine running into base of skull.

The details: It feels like a hot knife has entered my neck – inside the spinal cord – and is moved in one direction up toward my skull. It is quick and burning. At the moment it happens and for a few minutes afterwards, I cannot turn my head. Maybe I have a huge fear that I will suddenly become paralyzed. Not to mention that brief searing pain makes it feel like a bubble has been injected into my neck making it almost impossible to turn my head for a few minutes. Then, as fast as the pain came on, it instantly disappears.  Once I have that two or three minutes of discomfort (I am being gentle here with my choice of words) for the first time on any given day, I know it will come and go throughout the day for many days or a couple weeks. Then BOOM! It is gone and I forget all about it until the next bout.  This “searing pain” is not to be confused with the general feeling of “sunburn” that overpowers my upper thoracic and cervical for weeks at a time. That particular “sunburn” pain is not an instant searing feeling and then suddenly gone. The sunburn feeling lasts weeks and then I usually have intense fatigue after a couple weeks.

As far as the “searing” symptom goes, I have had two opinions on it by two excellent neurologists: Neuro One is my regular guy and he said it could be a symptom of the Syrinx beginning a slow spread toward the top of the spinal cord. Or it could signify future scarring/lesions.  Neuro Two is the specialist who is a researcher out of Stanford who has a small practice in Los Angeles who mainly treats M.S. patients, but loves to research wacky diseases of the spinal cord. She thinks it is a muscular or vascular issue since my arms are getting weaker as time progresses. Possibly Syrinx related.

2. Arms have been stricken by some invisible force causing complete immobility and pain so bad it causes severe exhaustion.

The details: So far, this has only happened, to this severity, while I am asleep. Overall, my arm muscles have become much weaker and extremely tender. This is all day, every day and I have adjusted my life to taking great care of how I use my arms. However, I must share that I feel fantastic when I stretch, practice yoga, and lift free weights. Regarding this brutally painful occurrence that comes on only during my sleep, I am acutely aware of my arm pain in general and sleep with my arms straight out – picture lying in bed making a T. Or I sleep with my arms running down the sides of my body. Sometimes I need a reprieve and will gently bend them, slightly, and rest them on my tummy. If I bend them, they don’t “fall asleep” in the normal sense of pins and needles. They become almost instantaneously numb and cold. If you cut of my hand or arm, I would not feel it. (This is why Neuro Two feels it is actually a vascular issue or muscular in nature.) One night, I awoke to see the pinky finger on my left hand sticking straight up like it had been bent backwards. I couldn’t feel it, I just happened to see it. I pushed it back down to align with my other fingers. This did not hurt me until the next day when my pinky knuckles hurt. Anyway, back to this invisible force. I am awakened by a deep, DEEP pain where my elbows bend, exactly where you might have blood taken or an IV inserted. This pain is so excruciating that I am unable to lift my arms because my bicep and triceps and my forearm muscles are mush and if I try to move even a pinch, they are in such pain that it brings with it a wave of nausea. It feels like a screw has been drilled into the middle of my arm at the bend. The pain from that invisible screw is one of the worst pains I have ever experienced. Ever. I honestly cannot imagine a pain worse than that though. Now if I lay there, and be still and do not try to move my arms, the only pain is in that “screw”. If I actually try to reposition my arms, I cannot. It is as if they are paralyzed, but the muscle pain is absolutely horrid. Like a big, bad, giant is standing on my little bicep and crushing it. This is now happening more frequently. It first began about four months ago with only my left arm. Suddenly it moved to my right arm and it isn’t happening occasionally. It seems to happen more often – about once or twice a week. The more frequent the incidents, the weaker and more tender my daytime arms have become. You see, I have nighttime arms that don’t work and daytime arms that don’t bother me that much.

I just made a doctor appointment with Neuro One. Hopefully he will share some reasons why this is happening.

3. Blurry vision.

The details: My long distance vision has gotten so blurry. This happened overnight. This blurry vision will last for a few weeks and then one day I’ll wake up and my long distance vision is perfectly clear again. I have been to the eye doctor numerous times and he keeps saying I have 20/20 vision. When I try to get into the eye doctor during a bout of blurry vision, he is booked or by the time the appointment comes around my vision has gone back to normal. I eat carrots… Why is this happening??

Again, I will share this with Neruo One. I do think it is a symptom of being closer to my mid-40’s than not!!

I have some other symptoms that have plagued me lately, but nothing that worries me like the searing neck and paralyzed arms. So off to a delightful weekend!

A Little Reprieve

Whew. I have missed two seasons. For the last four months, I was working on putting together a health and fitness expo. I have had only one flare-up that lasted about eight weeks. Other than the normal deep spinal cord pain and muscle weakness, I have felt fantastic.

My spinal cord hurts deep inside with a sunburn feeling from the base of my skull to my lumbar spine. That is from the syrinx. It has been a constant pain for months. Possibly because I haven’t been swimming. Or using my Stairmaster regularly. BOOOO me! It was a birthday gift and aside from swimming and lifting (light) weights, the Stairmaster is my favorite exercise. Lifting weights is supposedly a no-no with the Syringomyelia. However, it is good for M.S. and other diseases in that family. Besides, it burns fat and keeps the skeleton and muscles in excellent shape. And after a few months of working and not taking care of myself… I need to get rid of some fat. Oh-my!

Between working my show and having some days of rest here and there, I did find time to enjoy this Southern California fall and winter weather.

Kayaking off of Ventura Harbor.

Kayaking off of Ventura Harbor.

Sea Lions & Sailing

Sea Lions & Sailing

Hiking with my Sherpa on the Santa Cruz isle.

Hiking with my Sherpa on the Santa Cruz isle.

Touring the gorgeous homes in Heritage Square. Los Angeles

Touring the gorgeous homes in Heritage Square. Los Angeles

Enjoying the holiday season with family and friends.

Enjoying the holiday season with family and friends.

1,000 Lights

1,000 Lights

That just about wraps up the busy year. I hope 2013 is a great year for everyone filled with an abundant amount of good health and joy.  Get up and keep moving. Stay strong. Move that body or lose that body.

Multiple Sclerosis & Syringomyelia in My Body!

Here is the short version of my M.S. & Syrinx story. I’ll call it Part 1.

I had tingling, leg spasms, weak muscles, vertigo, and severe fatigue off and on for about 12 years or so. Probably other symptoms I can’t think of right now…OH, oh, like Costochondritis, blurry vision, creepy crawly skin, electric shock in my feet and torso, and some other stuff. I’m very active I never really followed-up with the symptoms on a serious level. I figured I had the flu every couple of months for about four to six weeks each bout.

What sent me to the doctor was this weird sunburn like feeling between my shoulder-blades that has just gotten to be completely unbearable over the last three months. I decided to go see my mother’s Alzheimer’s neurologist because he is the head of a department at a swanky hospital here in my city. (And you know, swanky must mean he is good, right? I jest 😉 ) I offer him my symptoms and straight away he said, “M.S. for sure is my thinking, but please have an MRI as a formality.” In the MRI results not only does he find M.S., he finds this Syrinx that extends from T1 down to my Lumbar area. The MS is a pain in the budinsky just by itself. The Syrinx is now completely inconvenient because it is so long and full/thick in most places, that it might actually be causing additional pain, numbness, and vertigo. And in addition to that I am told I can’t kayak, do a lot of strenuous yoga positions, or swim vigorously. What?? Holy mother of… I’ll be a fatty in no time.

A syrinx is a sack of fluid, a cyst rather, that in my case has resulted from either a trauma or meningitis or a tumor, and over the years I have continuously damaged my back to the point where the Syrinx has grown larger and longer inside the spinal cord. It will continue to grow and fill with fluid until there is no more room for it which supposedly may cause the loss of the use of my arms or legs possibly. That could require a risky surgery. Apparently doctors dissuade surgery until the patient is almost at that paralysis point. So I’m just hanging tight with M.S. and the Syrinx for now.

P.S. I am 41 years old. How long could it take to be close to immobile? Can’t they just pull some CSF from around the cord to relive some pressure? I had a lumbar puncture last week and that little amount of fluid drainage made me feel AMAZING for about one week. The sunburn feeling was gone. Now it is back.

Gabapentin (Neurontin) Side Effects

I have only been on Gabapentin for three weeks and I have gained weight. Not sure how much weight, but a lot. A little, a lot. A dress I had worn three weeks ago wouldn’t even go past my shoulders yesterday. It must be water weight because it is all in my torso.

The Gabapentin stops spastic movements in the legs and stabbing, burning spinal cord pain caused by lesions. It is also used for people with Epilepsy so it is a multi-use pharmaceutical. Like every drug in America. HA!

The side effects I have felt since taking the Gabapentin are: fuzzy brain/thinking, not feeling very alert when driving, unfocused vision, (not blurry or doubled, but more just unable to focus on the person or thing I’m supposed to look at) lack of concentration, weight gain, and exhaustion.

NOTE: I have only been on 900 mg for 3 weeks and most of those side effects have subsided, except the weight gain. Hopefully that will level out. I sleep like a log at night and it is fantastic. I will not increase my dosage even if the doctor asks me to. At least not yet. I have noticed improvement in my spastic leg and pain quite a bit and about 50% in my spinal column. Due to the long Syrinx in my cord, I really do not want to increase the Gabapentin because who knows if it is helping anything other than the spastic leg. Why take the “normal” 1900 – 2100 mg per day. Who even says that is normal?? 

Good luck with your medication options.



When Did Things Get So Crazy, Baby?

Remember when things were that simple? You could hop on the trike and hit the open road? The breeze blowing through your short, not-yet-grown-in-hair? Yea… neither do I, but it feels good to look at the photos and pretend to remember when that may have been. It couldn’t have been too long ago because at some point the hair grows in and we’re able to dress up that gorgeous wind-blown hair.

And then something goes awry and we need to call in our friends to back us up and open that can of Whoop-ass we’ve had tucked away for years. We never knew we had that can of Whoop-ass. We maybe thought it was a can of left-over PlayDoh or the Hanging Monkeys game. But evidently we all have Whoop-ass in some form or another. Mine comes in the form of strength. Health and fitness. People who workout. Keep their bodies strong.

Now, wait a minute. I said bodies. Not mind. And I realize he wears his name of his shirt. That’s for his benefit. Not yours or mine.

So I called in a few reinforcements when the going got tough recently. For the first time in my life I realized that in this world of crazy, I, the sane one may very well be one the edge of insanity. BUT luckily, I was pulled back from the edge of crazy and found out it was just Multiple Sclerosis. Whew. What a relief. My mind is not nuts. My world is nuts on occasion. My mind is fine. It is simply the added bonus of mind-meld from Multiple Sclerosis that is making it seem like the crazy is encroaching upon me when in fact is is not at all.

Multiple Sclerosis. Multiple Sclerosis. Let me say it a few times. I have Multiple Sclerosis. There. It’s out of my system. Well, not out of my system, but out of my system if you will. I’m not a sickie. Not a complainer. Not lazy. Not a bummer. So this diagnosis explains a lot for me and my close family.

Working in the health & fitness quasi-entertainment industry has helped me manage the Multiple Sclerosis symptoms over the last decade which is why I only recently received the diagnosis. People like ^^^^^^^ Mikey are the ones who inspire people like me to exercise everyday. Okay, four, maybe five days a week. The point is, working with the people I work with have made it very easy to keep Multiple Sclerosis manageable. I admit that I have been in a drunken stupor four the last month since I received the diagnosis and have let some things slide on the responsibility scale. However, it is the people like ^^^^^^ Mikey in my life who said, “Get up, girl. Move that body. Vegetarian – not good enough. Time to be a vegan. Move that body. Move. That. Body. or Lose. That. Body.”

So here I am one month later and six doctor visits in, more testing to go due to an unexpected spinal cord issue that was found as well, but the MS symptoms are going to be manageable, I believe wholeheartedly, due to a healthy diet, consistent exercise, and the strength of the people in my life who make me strong.

My baby, who happens to be taller than I, is the first one to say get that Yoga mat out and let’s stretch it out while we watch Pretty Little Liars and the Mentalist. She rocks, people. She will rock MS right out of you too if you let her. My tall baby is the first person to help me out of a chair on the days my body can’t do it alone. She is the first person to grab swimsuits for the gym swim. She is a-w-e-s-o-m-e. And sane.

My lovey, who happens to have more longevity on this planet that I, is the first one to say let’s eat it raw, vegan! He is the best vegan cook on the planet. He is a shopper, chopper, chef, experimenter, supporter of anything new, he is truly amazing. He is so supportive. He is always looking for new ways to cook food, find new things to reduce inflammation in the body, try new recipes, and he eats whatever I try to prepare. That in and of itself is a sacrifice. He always says it was delicious. He is wonderful. And borderline sane, but not, but maybe he is.

So I’m opening a can of Whoop-ass on the Multiple Sclerosis.

Eat it

Eat it

Move it

Move it

Introducing MS and the Syrinx

Who would have thought that you go to the doctor to receive the diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis only to hear the following:

“We do see that you have MS lesions. However, I see something even more mind-blowing. You have a Syrinx that goes from T2 all the way down to your Lumbar region. And I see two bright white spots here in the T3 and T4 region that I don’t like. They could be tumors. Maybe lesions, but they look like tumors. Your Syrinx is so thick and full right there it was hard to get a good picture. But they are an odd shape, indicative of a tumor, and not what we typically see in a lesion. Now, do you have any questions for me?”

Yes. What in the world is a Syrinx?

Apparently, a syrinx is caused by either a traumatic injury or you are born with it (if you are born with the condition, called a Chiari-Malformation, one usually knows about this at birth or early childhood !!!!  and since I am 40-ish, I do think I would have caught on much earlier had this been the case. DUH) So the doctor looks at me and says, “What trauma did you sustain? Yours is very long. In fact, one of the longest I’ve seen which means the trauma happened a looooooong time ago.” Okay. Hmmm. Nothing. I’ve never had a trauma. No back injury aside from the normal tussle when I was a kid with my sister rolling around in our Barbie tent. He said, “Well, it was traumatic whatever the case. And that is neither here nor there because there is nothing you can do now except for BE CAREFUL. No activity that will cause it to get worse. No kayaking. No impact sports such as white water rafting (cancel that summer trip), no backpacking, no lifting weights at the gym. Actually, light weight is okay. Maybe 5 – 8 pounds.” Oh, my gosh. What?? Remember, I have Multiple Sclerosis too and muscle maintenance is very important. So this is a double edge sword, this diagnosis.

The tumors, I believe they are lesions. He is not so sure. But what does it matter if they are inside the spinal cord anyway? There is no option if they are tumors. I’m going with lesions for now.